The cold morning air...

The chill wind that cuts into the bones...

The sea of mist that flows towards the East in the lowlands...

The vast hilly terrain that stretches as far as the eyes can see....

The white peaks of the mountain...

Wild horses grazing...

The warm summer sun, yet blinding, beyond the hills.....

For 2 weeks I have lived in such conditions, suffering some degree of jet lag in the begining. Its 5hrs earlier than Singapore. It was a 6 hr bus ride to reach my destination. It was a struggle to wake up every morning bcos its so cold. I loved it. It was more satisfying pulling off the warm blankets. Hot showers, long johns, woolen gloves became a daily essentials. The food was good, with beef served almost every meal. I even got mini fruit danishes as part of the meal. Never had I tasted so many kinds of deserts... one of them...butter bread pudding. A cup of hot tea after each meal. I also found out that the kiwis, the non native ones, don't really like greens. I do missed those. I see wild horses and hares everyday. There's two distinct herds in home vally and one beyond nursary on the plains beside the river. They were magnificant, with their mane flowing in the wind as they gallop on. Everyday i drive 8km to my post. Everyday I feel refreshed as I breath the air that is not tainted with exhaust fumes or cooking coco. I feel boundless as I gazed at the landscape. My Spirit expands and my heart livens... my craving for space seems to be satisfyed then, when I was still back in New Zealand. I'd love to be back there again.

Searchlight 29 Jan 2009
"Angel and Devil is but a choice away."

The Question of "What's Next??"

30 November 08, Sunday ....... Come to realise it... its now 1st Dec 08, Monday, 0024am. Time really waits for no one.

I think I can see a thrend now. Whenever I blog, its always when i feel tired, or sad, or exhausted, or a begining of a new chapter in my life.

Today's sermon was good. What is Faith? Faith is simply believing and speaking. And I believe that God is Good. He is my Righteousness. He is Blessing and Blessings to come. I will have a fresh new revelation of Him, every morning and nite........

I don't really always wana start my para with " Well, been busy lately..." but the situation is such. I HAVE been busy lately. And I declare it as the Favor of God. I will not back away from this declaration. 1 month sincel the hectic days started, I got like only days in between to rest. I really really pray for the ability to enter rest. I hope that after tues' CPX, i can really really go for a break. I desperately need one to sort things out. I need to realign my priorities both in my work life and church. I NEED IT LORD!!! Give it to me Heavenly Daddy....

That sense of wanting to get out of Singapore is getting back to me..... the orange afternoon sun of Cebu, the busy streets of taipei, stary nites of Brunei, chstty voices of Bongkok, misty breath of Australia, simplicity of Bali, black sand of Manado.............


GUess its almost time to sleep.I'll blog again soon.


Searchlight 01 Dec 2008
"Angel and Devil is but a choice away."

Wandering spirit that I have....

It has be a fast, hectic, busy 2 months. Went over to support AI in Ex Battleking for the cadets as a BC trainer in Crescendo for the last 3 weeks. Many things happened there. Spiritual things too. I was so fortunate to have the Creator of Heaven and Earth as my Protector. I am so lucky to have a hundred angels from Him to protect me. I am honoured to be set apart by Him. Touched down on Sat early morning from Crescendo and headed straight to my dad's b'day chalet. Didn't have much of a good rest there either.

Finally....... I, finally, managed to catch up with some sleep this afternoon. It was refreshing.

Haven't totally been myself these few days. I don't know why. Ever since I started travelling, my heart yearns more. And every time i return to Singapore, my heart sank a little and I felt that I have left a part of me in that particular place I've just been. Its very hard to describe. Its almost feels like depression. My heart wanders and sway, wondering what I can do next. I'm surrounded by many questions. Why do I have such a free and wandering spirit within me? Why can't I be like everyone else, contented with settling down? What am I searching for? Love? Home? The other half? Satisfaction? God? Myself?

I know that when I have God... I have Jesus with and in me, I'm already made whole. But why am I still not able to settle down? Is it just Singapore? This place is so darn hectic.... I'm living in a world that change faster than I change my underpants. Crude description but true to the max. I want a place where I can really sit down in the morning sun and read my bible, spend time strolling down the beach with Jesus, To talk to God, to finish my book, to stare into the sky for hours.

Maybe its the break of routine. I hate to stop once I got started and its seems like I'm going to have a cold start all over again after all. My spirit is restless. My mind is ticking, My body is lethargic. I don't want attention, I don't want spot light. I just want to spend some quality time alone. I just want to feel the warmth of the morning sun on my skin, the cool sea breeze in my face, a cup of hot tea and my bible in my hand. I need some time to start all over again.

Tame my spirit, My Lord.


Searchlight 20 Aug 2008
"Angel and Devil is but a choice away."

Spirit Willing Body Weak..........

Whoosh.... Been a while since I've blogged. So many things had happened. I really don't know where to start. Well, there's more than one topic that I wana blog so, I guess i'll start with today...

Today
Its Choir recruitment today so we had an item and recruitment drive. Today was one of the days that I truely experienced spirit willing body weak.... hah. After serving all 4 services, i truely admire Pastor's ability to preach the entire day. No wonder he took the whole monday to recover.... Well, I had lotsa fun today. We were like so pressed and beaten that in the 4th service we were like just worshipping God rather than supporting the worship. The anointing just flows man. Hah. We jumped and we sway, we lift our hands and we poured out our hearts. It was good! hah. By dinner, I was so exhausted that I went blank at moments. Took a long time to settle on what to buy for dinner cos me'brain was too dead to think what to eat.... but me'stomache always reminds me to. hah. Well, tiring day it is but all praises to Jesus, I enjoyed praise and worship today. hah.

Arrow
I was glad I learnt many things in Arrow yest. I was glad that we have new comers and that our NYP CG is growing rapidly. Coach Lewis also coached me about the dynamics of a CG and I really learnt alot. Its been a fruitful walk. I'm happy that I percevered thro'. I'll still continue to walk this journey faithfully and with God. Almost 8 months since I served in Arrow. There's UPs and DOWNs but of cos we'll deal with it. Currently under the mentorship of the 3 overseers and I'm truely blessed. Thank you Jesus for this ministry.

Work
Well, busy busy busy..... That's all I can say. But by Jesus's Grace and mercy will bright me thro. gagagagag. Standing in for the BC for the time being. Well everything is a little more hectic now, but I'll get by with grace each day.

Family
I pray to God that every moment that I spent with my family is fruitful and enjoyable. Its been 2 weeks since I really talked to my dad. Busy with work, busy with church and by the time I got back home on sunday, he had already gone back to bro's place. Mum too..... havent really spend much time home recently. Well, I trust in You. I trust in Your faithfulness.


Well, there's many many things that I wana blog today. But I kept dozing off as I blog... so.... being a wise child of God... its time to hit the bed man. Will blog again real soon


Searchlight 20 July 2008
"Angel and Devil is but a choice away."

Sweet taste of "Revenge"

OKie.... I must admit that the title is not at all edifying. But I guess there's still some differences in sacasam and a word of correction. I admit that I'm not all perfect but I guess I'll just indulge on someone's hurt ego for a moment.

Actually, I just told off someone what I think of him for a duration of a year and half working with him. I must admit that he is very capable in churning up papers for the branch.... well, actually not to all eyes. I just found out from my CO that he didn't really think much of this colleage of mine, who kept insisting that he helped my CO "a lot" and is a close friend of his. Hah.. Irony rite?? Sounds familar rite? Anyway, I just told him to 1. treat his wife alittle better (which he replied that he did and the person he talks on the phone is someone else. But ALL of us in the office always hear him slamming the phone on her... always the same conversation... "I working lah... dun disturb me!!!..... You got buy after work lah!!!.... Why you so fussy one!!"... the SLAM!!!) and 2. to have some self control of himself in office (he brought up an idea of a quiet corner during the renovation plan because he felt that the office is too noisy and he cant read or concentrate. But He has ALWAYS been the ONE and ONLY ONE that talks aloud on the phone, think aloud while he types, curse and swear when he's aggitated, slams the phone, slaps the keyboard. Haiz, if onli there's a cc canera in the office, I definitely do a play back for him.)

Well, basically I just say what is true to him and I guess it did hurt his ego aliitle because he did wrote back a long email to explain himself. Of cos he wont miss the opportunity to counter attack me. Well, I'm pretty fine with it because I know that my report card is done by my Abba while he still trust his own effort. Well, I do take it with a good heart and as a feedback for improvement.

Okie okie... my left hand column... the end is Raymond 10 and Lxxtxr 0!!! Gosh. although I must be more forgiving as a Child of God, but I still pray that our path will not cross again. I don't wana experince that kinda working environment again... I mean his part of the working environment. hah.

K... Time to hit the bed man. Now I just wana be be a good 2IC and subsequently a respectable BC in the near future.Of cos, I'll have to rely heavily on Abba about this. hah

Searchlight 05 June 2008
"Angel and Devil is but a choice away."

Ecstacy of the sea

God Created Heaven and Earth, Light and darkness on the first day and it was Good.

God Created the sky and separated Heaven from Earth and it was Good.

God Created the seas on the 3nd day and it was Good.

Just came back from Dayang trip with NTU today. Led the leisure team and it was quite enjoyable as with Colin and Gerald, the 2 jokers around. Life's never bored. hah. At the momentl, I'm very tired , I'm suffering from sea withdrawal symtoms and i dun have any supper. So guess I'll continue to tell you the stories another day. Just some things to take note. Alda's successor was even more entertaining. hahah. Poor gerald. hahaahah. Anyway, din take much pics this trip, was leading dives so i left the photo taking to Angeline and Xavier. Here's some pics i took. Enjoy!!

Searchlight 02 June 2008
"Angel and Devil is but a choice away."

Overflowing Attention

Aiyo.... so embaressing today.

I'm like having a nic tagged to me in choir from this day forth. And the nic is "Mr Hiao".... Well, today I had a little too much attention from Wendy, our choir "mummy". At first she told the whole choir that i change my facebook pic very often. Then later she say I look like the fish I caught. Then the whole choir is like "waaahh"... "Orrrrhhhhh".... "Mmmmm"..... "Arhhhhh".... So paiseh sia. Well, anyway, today was fantastic. I was just starting to enjoy the pratice, then it stopped. Haiz... so short. I can just go on and on worshipping Jesus. I'm starting to regret making the choice to go help NTU scuba at dayang this weekend. Serving Abba seems so much more exciting.

Oh well, Its getting late. Gota go and rest man.

Searchlight Midnight 29 May 2008
"Angel and Devil is but a choice away."